I swear, it feels like the world's ending.

I need help. Badly. Where are my friends when I need them?

You and Me

This is You and Me by Lifehouse
For you.......

I chose this song because it's one of my favourite's and is relatively easy to play for a beginner like me. The version played here is only half of it due to video space limits.



This is the video I posted on youtube. Even then, I played along with the song but I left out the bridge, because I couldn't find accurate chords for it. Nice time I'll try and sing along too but I can't guarantee my singing will sound good. Haha.

The next song I intend to do is "your call" by Secondhand Serenade, because a friend of mine LOVES it. You can expect it to be up here on friday :).

Emoooooo.

Somehow I feel I have lost all my friends. I don't feel my usual self anymore, just a depressed and sombre shade of myself. I have lost all will to socialise.

Well okay I don't know. Today I heard a close friend (I do not want to mention his name) talking behind my back and while that really hurt and nearly reduced me to tears , I sometimes wonder, do I really deserve this treatment? True friends will appreciate me for me, and not for my shortcomings. They will ask me to spend time with them, in school or out, without me having to actually beg them ( And no I don't do that).

Sometimes I feel that those people who I've cared for should at least give me a fraction of their care and attention, which I'm not getting right now. There are a few exceptions though, and I'm of course thankful for them. Well maybe I have a few shortcomings, like perhaps the ability to create humor but seriously is humor the only thing friendship hinges on?

On a happier note, I'm glad that I'm in rock climbing because I feel that I can make true friends, of course if I try to socialise a bit more. And I'm getting fitter by the day. Oh and EE's friggin over!!!!!!!! Though we can tell from Jose's and Sandesh's rhyme that the stress is far from over.

Savy's words of wisdom.

I think we should read and reflect on what Savy has to share with us:

“This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is for the guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for the nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And also for that time she didn’t have a date, and even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

Many girls claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!).But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming"

Happy Valentines Day!

Here is a poem I picked out that looked interesting. You'll find the start to be rather interesting, and overall a rather unique poem because its not the usual Valentines day gift ....

Valentine by Carol Ann Duffy

Not a red rose or a satin heart.
I give you an onion.
It is a moon wrapped in brown paper.
It promises light like the careful undressing of love.

Here.
It will blind you with tears like a lover.
It will make your reflection a wobbling photo of grief.

I am trying to be truthful.

Not a cute card or a kissogram.
I give you an onion.
Its fierce kiss will stay on your lips,
possessive and faithful
as we are,
for as long as we are.

Take it.
Its platinum loops shrink to a wedding-ring,
if you like.

Lethal.
Its scent will cling to your fingers,
cling to your knife.

The end isn't very pleasant though. Onions don't smell good. As you can see, the poet has carefully crafted the "onion" into this poem meant for lovers. Any interesting individual interpretations on this peom are welcome.

My 2 cents on Religion...

Well many argue on which religion is true or false based on their historical evidence. A religion is largely a belief that comes with a certain code of conduct/ religious practices that are to be followed.

For me I think we shouldn't question if the religion is true or false but rather follow the principles behind the religion because no matter what religion, the principles of that religion are virtous qualities that will help us in leading a more significant life. Yes even the Quran is a wonderful holy text that can sometimes be misinterpreted.

The atheist's argument is if we can't see, hear, feel, smell, taste God, then how do we know god exists? Well god is omniscient, omnipresent, omnipotent and all-pervading. He is the infinite while we are the finite. So tell me, how can we with finite senses/capabilities judge the infinite energy which we all call God.

My IB school life so far...

Well, school life this year has been up and running and in full swing. Life seems so boring but then i guess i'll just have to plod through this vast and seemingly never-ending phase. There has to be a balance between homework and social life and i feel i've kinda neglected my social life. I ain't the most social person. And there are times where i feel i don't belong to the sjii community. I'm gonna try to make my friendships count because right now they seem to be failing. But I'm gonna try my best okay!

They always say make your new years resolutions at the start of the new year. To me I only quite discovered my resolutions. So I'm gonna post some of them hear. Feel free to comment.

New Year's Resolution

1. stop procrastinating, be dilligent
2. be a bit more sociable too. make more friends
3. Work hard on my fitness - NS is only next year!!!!
4. Focus on developing talent such as learning guitar, because after looking at SJII, i feel i have wayy too little. I can't even accept my current talents.
5. Improve family relationships. Very important as only my family can keep me afloat on "sea" of school life.

6. removed.

I will do my very best to keep my resolutions,
Suraj

School is sooo boringgg....

Here i am in the sjii computer lab sitting here watching the hour needle of the clock go by while others do their unemployment task...... I feel so dreary, tired and HUNGRY!! Its been about 5 days since i have put on braces and i can't resume my normal diet. Which means porridge like every single day. Eww. Like really, I've lost my taste for food. Oh and yeah, on the spur of the moment i've suddenly decided to blog at the most random hour.

anyways back to school matters

Ib has really "revved up" and i can't take the workload. every single day, at least 1 piece of homework a day, far more than the workload in sec 4. Anyways work or not, what's the difference if you're born lazy like me? I live to eat, play and sleep. like seriously. The voice in my head tells me t0 focus but i'm like whatever!

Omg, i look around me and everybody seems to be working their a$$ off doing their unemployment task thingy. I feel like saying to myself "tsk, tsk suraj. wot a slacker!" The repeated thumping of keys on thiru's keybord makes me so anxious, even though i'm done with my task. Even juns next to me seems to be very focus and "on task", while she could actually be doing many better ( in my opinion) things on her macbook. Haizz.

okay i better not procrastinate any more. like really. so i'm gonna end this post right now, if not if Mr Thorpe comes over, he'll .....er do something?

December Babies!

Here are some people born in December (the month of Christmas!) I would like to wish...

Happy Birthday!!! to

Jinq Qing, Rachel, Alyssa, Bernadette, Ryan and Mathew.

I wish you all the best for your forthcoming IB exam year ! May God bless you with a very satisfying life in whatever you do!

Best Wishes,
Suraj

Tell me how I'm Supposed to live in a World with NO AIR?

I'm Dying, Litterally. I can't Breathe.

1. IOP/Word Lit
2. CHEM EE
3. Econs Commentary 2
4. Guitar Exams
5. My own Revision ( Yes im forced to do 6hr/day!!!!). It's for my own good, sheesh.
6. Golf Handicap Test

Grade 11/10/9 Party!!!

I must say it was great FUN yesterday night. From the food to the dancing and the absolutely ROCKING performance by XES.

The food was great. Have to thank the student council specially John and Mennon for organising this.

The really fun part was to watch the couples dance and the games. Thiru and Mary had this fantastic idea to get Mr Bennet and his Wife to start of the dancing and set the pace for the couples.

Watch out for Ian and Rachel Foomz!

The DJ tried to "hit on" Mary! (haha sowwy mary had to include this) She turned all red ! Omg during the games, Rachel had to complete a task whereby she had to pull out 5 legs hairs off another guy! And it just had to be me =.= cuz ian had noone haha. Ouch!

The 4 songs was "warmness on the soul" by a7x, "supermassive black hole" and "hysteria" both by Muse, and "slither" by velvet revolver. and I mean ernest was litterally on fire and performed a nice stunt whereby he jumped from the stage on to the dance floor. damn cool sia! Weijie was fantastic with hysteria, you need extremely fast fingers to play the starting bit. Chris was good as usual on the drums.

Lastly some nice pics of us on the table:

That concludes an exciting blog post (well at least i hope so) on our grade 11 party nite. Hope for some comments etc .

Group 4 Project experiments. nightmare. OMG!!!!

SERIOUSLY. We (me and Tsao Hui) just put the mythbusters to shame. Risk factor: Probably like 99.9%! The stuff we did was just crazy! We could've have died about 3 times!

Part of our experiments were to conduct a flame test on Sodium and Potassium to view its emmision spectra. Group 1 superdooper reactive metals! Well, as you would expect, the pottasium ignited to form purple flames (the colour of its spectra). But what was most shocking was some pottasium melted and fell on the table. We could litteraly see the purple flames as it burnt a hole in the table. Then came a furious Dr Hjorth with a contorted face frowning at us, reminding us repeatedly of the safety rules.

Okay so after that we burnt potassium in the fume cupboard, doing it correctly. BUT, we made a fatal mistake. We took some of the potassium ash (not fully burnt) and chucked it down the sink. GENIUS right? what if somebody switched on the tap? (Remember what happens between potassium and water!!!!) luckily it was initially dry.

We continued our experiments. The next horror was when we reacted FeCl3 with Na2O. We litteraly heard a POP sound with the mixture nearly exploding in flames! I swaaare Tsao Hui is such a brave girl. I would have fainted if i was holding the boiling tube. Thing is right, I was too shocked to faint.

WELL finally to cap of a really traumatising day, we turned on the tap at our sink, causing water to react with the pottasium in the sink. It sizzled on the water and then exploded. LUCKILY, for us it was such a small amount. We were both soooo shaken that we decided to immediatly clear up after that and go to the canteen for a drink.

Wedding albums

Yesterday, after chess, my parents took me to a play called the Wedding Album held in the ESPLANADE studio! This was a play by an all indian cast about the uncertainties of a typical indian wedding. It was mainly about the conflict among the family members about weddings. This play showed the process of choosing a bride/groom for the brother/sister of the family and whether the parents both mum and dad would approve. Often there would be would be conflicts between mum and dad, mum and maid and mum and elder sister! The mum goes through alot of anxiety during this period, often leading to rather melodramatic scenes! For example, she is so stressed out that she shouts at the maid when she adds just a bit too much masala (spice) into the food for the normal family dinner. She throws tantrums at the maid, who does the same back. There is also arguments over which sari to give to which important guests (often the other party).

There is this huge load of responsibility placed on the brother's shoulders during the wedding as he has to tend to his sisters groom and make arrangements for him to visit their family in preparation for the wedding. He struggles with it, as he also has his own girlfriend as a distraction. (who he eventually ditched and then invited her to his home for a night!) Furthermore, uninvited guests appears at his house to discuss a marriage proposal with their daughter! The brother repeatedly refuses the offer to marry their daughter however the parents are so adamant they litteraly keep asking him and delaying his other chores in the process.

This wedding also shows what would happen if a humble traditional indian bride would be paired up with a rich, wealthy businessman from the US. The accent and the scene were so comical that it appeared to sattirize the businessman. The audience infact thought it was a caricature! I thought that it was a stereotype of the american husband as a more physical rather than emotional person who wanted to give and recieve pleasure.

The play ends with the maid reliving her memories of her marraige and her own daughter while the younger daughter of the family finally gets married.

Kick Off !

Greetings! Well I have wayy too much information inside my head. I'm brimming to the full with thoughts right now and yeah i think you guessed it....I've decided to put pen to paper and write it down. Oh wait, we're in the 21st century..epiphany. It seems like just yesterday, I walked into my first primary school. Time passes faster than I can think. Haha, oh well.

Anyways, (yes i used Maclehose's escape clause) my life has been a mixture of High tides and Low tides. when i came to SJII, i didn't know what to expect. But at least i felt better now ever since my dismal O level results.

My experience at SJII has been an enriching one so far. However, in the pursuit of happiness I still find myself struggling to make friends which I feel I must improve on. IT HAS BEEN A YEAR. Friends have been far and few so far. I admit i wasn't the most sociable, even in my old school.

Some people I have even wronged this year and I humbly apologise for that. (yes thiru! that includes throwing a scissors at you.)

Well this caps off a tiring day of blogging. (Tho i only typed for 20 minutes haha). To whoever reads my blog sorry for a boooring start but i felt i needed to adress these things.