I swear, it feels like the world's ending.

I need help. Badly. Where are my friends when I need them?

You and Me

This is You and Me by Lifehouse
For you.......

I chose this song because it's one of my favourite's and is relatively easy to play for a beginner like me. The version played here is only half of it due to video space limits.



This is the video I posted on youtube. Even then, I played along with the song but I left out the bridge, because I couldn't find accurate chords for it. Nice time I'll try and sing along too but I can't guarantee my singing will sound good. Haha.

The next song I intend to do is "your call" by Secondhand Serenade, because a friend of mine LOVES it. You can expect it to be up here on friday :).

Emoooooo.

Somehow I feel I have lost all my friends. I don't feel my usual self anymore, just a depressed and sombre shade of myself. I have lost all will to socialise.

Well okay I don't know. Today I heard a close friend (I do not want to mention his name) talking behind my back and while that really hurt and nearly reduced me to tears , I sometimes wonder, do I really deserve this treatment? True friends will appreciate me for me, and not for my shortcomings. They will ask me to spend time with them, in school or out, without me having to actually beg them ( And no I don't do that).

Sometimes I feel that those people who I've cared for should at least give me a fraction of their care and attention, which I'm not getting right now. There are a few exceptions though, and I'm of course thankful for them. Well maybe I have a few shortcomings, like perhaps the ability to create humor but seriously is humor the only thing friendship hinges on?

On a happier note, I'm glad that I'm in rock climbing because I feel that I can make true friends, of course if I try to socialise a bit more. And I'm getting fitter by the day. Oh and EE's friggin over!!!!!!!! Though we can tell from Jose's and Sandesh's rhyme that the stress is far from over.

Savy's words of wisdom.

I think we should read and reflect on what Savy has to share with us:

“This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is for the guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for the nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And also for that time she didn’t have a date, and even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

Many girls claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!).But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming"

Happy Valentines Day!

Here is a poem I picked out that looked interesting. You'll find the start to be rather interesting, and overall a rather unique poem because its not the usual Valentines day gift ....

Valentine by Carol Ann Duffy

Not a red rose or a satin heart.
I give you an onion.
It is a moon wrapped in brown paper.
It promises light like the careful undressing of love.

Here.
It will blind you with tears like a lover.
It will make your reflection a wobbling photo of grief.

I am trying to be truthful.

Not a cute card or a kissogram.
I give you an onion.
Its fierce kiss will stay on your lips,
possessive and faithful
as we are,
for as long as we are.

Take it.
Its platinum loops shrink to a wedding-ring,
if you like.

Lethal.
Its scent will cling to your fingers,
cling to your knife.

The end isn't very pleasant though. Onions don't smell good. As you can see, the poet has carefully crafted the "onion" into this poem meant for lovers. Any interesting individual interpretations on this peom are welcome.

My 2 cents on Religion...

Well many argue on which religion is true or false based on their historical evidence. A religion is largely a belief that comes with a certain code of conduct/ religious practices that are to be followed.

For me I think we shouldn't question if the religion is true or false but rather follow the principles behind the religion because no matter what religion, the principles of that religion are virtous qualities that will help us in leading a more significant life. Yes even the Quran is a wonderful holy text that can sometimes be misinterpreted.

The atheist's argument is if we can't see, hear, feel, smell, taste God, then how do we know god exists? Well god is omniscient, omnipresent, omnipotent and all-pervading. He is the infinite while we are the finite. So tell me, how can we with finite senses/capabilities judge the infinite energy which we all call God.

My IB school life so far...

Well, school life this year has been up and running and in full swing. Life seems so boring but then i guess i'll just have to plod through this vast and seemingly never-ending phase. There has to be a balance between homework and social life and i feel i've kinda neglected my social life. I ain't the most social person. And there are times where i feel i don't belong to the sjii community. I'm gonna try to make my friendships count because right now they seem to be failing. But I'm gonna try my best okay!

They always say make your new years resolutions at the start of the new year. To me I only quite discovered my resolutions. So I'm gonna post some of them hear. Feel free to comment.

New Year's Resolution

1. stop procrastinating, be dilligent
2. be a bit more sociable too. make more friends
3. Work hard on my fitness - NS is only next year!!!!
4. Focus on developing talent such as learning guitar, because after looking at SJII, i feel i have wayy too little. I can't even accept my current talents.
5. Improve family relationships. Very important as only my family can keep me afloat on "sea" of school life.

6. removed.

I will do my very best to keep my resolutions,
Suraj