Somehow I feel I have lost all my friends. I don't feel my usual self anymore, just a depressed and sombre shade of myself. I have lost all will to socialise.
Well okay I don't know. Today I heard a close friend (I do not want to mention his name) talking behind my back and while that really hurt and nearly reduced me to tears , I sometimes wonder, do I really deserve this treatment? True friends will appreciate me for me, and not for my shortcomings. They will ask me to spend time with them, in school or out, without me having to actually beg them ( And no I don't do that).
Sometimes I feel that those people who I've cared for should at least give me a fraction of their care and attention, which I'm not getting right now. There are a few exceptions though, and I'm of course thankful for them. Well maybe I have a few shortcomings, like perhaps the ability to create humor but seriously is humor the only thing friendship hinges on?
On a happier note, I'm glad that I'm in rock climbing because I feel that I can make true friends, of course if I try to socialise a bit more. And I'm getting fitter by the day. Oh and EE's friggin over!!!!!!!! Though we can tell from Jose's and Sandesh's rhyme that the stress is far from over.
Well okay I don't know. Today I heard a close friend (I do not want to mention his name) talking behind my back and while that really hurt and nearly reduced me to tears , I sometimes wonder, do I really deserve this treatment? True friends will appreciate me for me, and not for my shortcomings. They will ask me to spend time with them, in school or out, without me having to actually beg them ( And no I don't do that).
Sometimes I feel that those people who I've cared for should at least give me a fraction of their care and attention, which I'm not getting right now. There are a few exceptions though, and I'm of course thankful for them. Well maybe I have a few shortcomings, like perhaps the ability to create humor but seriously is humor the only thing friendship hinges on?
On a happier note, I'm glad that I'm in rock climbing because I feel that I can make true friends, of course if I try to socialise a bit more. And I'm getting fitter by the day. Oh and EE's friggin over!!!!!!!! Though we can tell from Jose's and Sandesh's rhyme that the stress is far from over.
